My best friend has told me:
-I want you to stick a gun up your ass and kill yourself
-I’m not worth it.
-she hates me.
-that I’m her person, but she’s not bound to me for life like she is other people.
Why do I still care soooooo much? Why is it that my heart and brain can’t help but pray for her or think of her well being or want to see her and talk to her abt everything that happens in my life? Why is it that God would give me the one thing in life I have always prayed for in one person, and she says to me alllllllllll the things that break my soul. Why is this happening to me?